Strange Days

How I wish I could surrender my soul; Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing. How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud, Instead I've found no meaning.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

I'm sure just about everyone saw James Blunt on Oprah, or has heard about him, or his number one song, "You're Beautiful", seeing his emotion and feeling his raw untouched honesty was one of the most refreshing feelings I've had in a while, he seems really genuine. Those were the lyrics to his song Tears and Rain. beautiful.

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So, I'm back, got all of my online issues straight, and hope to be posting more regularly. Did ya miss me?

Oh yeah, while my online was down I finished another painting and started 3 more! Here's the one I finished, it needs a name though....maybe you can help me come up with one?

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I completed the course for substitute teaching today, so this should be interesting, and at the very least make for good blogging, lol. The course was pretty simple, learning lots of rules and sitting on hard ass auditorium seats for 5 hours. my butt still aches, lol.

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GUESS WHAT??? I will be showing my art publicly for the first time at an exhibition called "Something About Soul" during the James Brown festival here in Augusta. I am so excited. So many many thanks to PaintingChef for sending me the info.

The place where the exibition is being held is HUGE. It used to be a department store called JB White, it has huge columns that go down each side of the room and 30 foot ceilings. I'm going to have to do some bigger pieces for this, so I did go out and get a 20x60 inch frame, a 36x24 inch and a 30x40 inch at a half price sale...somehow they still don't seem big enough, I'd love a 6 x 6 foot or a 10x10 foot....but i think a 6x6 foot would cost me a hundred bucks I don't have right now to blow. Oh well, it's called do the best with what you got! I dont think words can express how excited I am. :) I'm going to take pics and let you know how it goes.

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Jessica made the honor roll. Sh ehad a little trouble adjusting after being homeschooled for two years, but she did it, and I was so proud of her. She kept teasing me, saying "it was a fluke Mom, I dont know how it happened...dont expect it to happen again", lol She knows it was her hard work that made it happen. That's my girl.

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more James Blunt lyrics....this one is called Beautiful. He said he wrote it after he was on a train, and saw his ex girlfriend with another man. He said they never spoke, but for a moment, their eyes locked, and a lifetime passed in that moment.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true,
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As I walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Flying high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Lalala lalala lalala lalala laaaaaa

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you