Strange Days

....my long awaited art class starts in two hours, i've

I printed out the directions from mapquest, (cause im new to this area) and now i know exactly how to get there

I packed a bag with all my supplies (while jessica laughed at me..."look at you, with your cute little bag, like your going to school")

I threw a shoe at her and kept packing...

brushes ::check:: canvas ::check:: pallette knife ::check:: paints...titanium white...lemon yellow, burnt umber, and on and on ::check::

oh wait..permanent sap green....it's not here...looking under chair, table, box, empty bag, look again, look under butt, am i sitting on it??...looking thru house, but why, everything was all in one box...did it not get ordered? did they not send it?

have to look over packing slip, cant find it, too late anyway....class is in two hours. will i need green on the first day? will i be the loser that didnt bring green? :::pointing fingers:::: she's the loser that couldnt paint trees, or grass, or elves, or snot, or green eyed girls....

im stressing. I may have some green in my art stuff...but i dont think its SAP green....and sap isnt even green, whats the deal?

why am i stressing over a stupid art class? i was so excited all week, in fact all month. im acting like this is the best thing thats ever happened to me. maybe i've made too much of it, after all its just a freakin art class. am i building myself up to be dispointed? butterflies in my stomach. maybe it's cause i love painting so much, and i never do anything that i love cause im always doing things for other people that they love.

will the teacher like me?

what am i, in 1st grade? ::smacks self:: will the other kids, i mean grown ups, like me? get a grip, who cares..like mom used to say

:::irritating mommy voice::: "your not there to make friends..."

a friend who paints would be nice though...unless it was one of those people i hate, the ones who always have to point out how much better than you they are....or how they ALWAYS "knew" how to do this or that....dont you hate people like that?

Ok...off to take a shower...pick what im gonna wear...leave early so i get there on time...calm my nerves........i'm such a geek.

I'll let you know what happens. :/